On Gaining Certainty

The Hubby says to me, “Expect the worst, and you will never be disappointed.”

 I can’t seem to do that.  I’m an optimist, deep down.  An optimist, which seems naive and childish, faced with what’s been going on in the world, in my own family, in my own life.  I’m an optimist, in wishing well for those around me and hoping that they wish me well as well.  I’m an optimist, in praying that children do not have to pay for the sins of the parent.  I’m an optimist because Daniel — helpless and utterly dependent on those around him — needs as much chance for happiness as possible.

Today… well, today I gained a bit of certainty that was a blow to that optimism.  Not a horrible one — and, really, it shouldn’t have been a surprise, since the spectre of that certainty hung over me for the past few weeks now.  I just didn’t want to believe it.  I wanted to hope for the best.

I can be such a fool.

The Hubby is not a fool, and he was not surprised. “Expect the worst, and you will never be disappointed.”

I have to remind myself that certainty is always better than ignorance.

I have to remind myself that life is too short to be afraid of looking like a fool.

Ah me…


About lizardqueen

If single-mothering were a paid job, I'd be rich. However, it doesn't, so I write (which doesn't pay the bills) and teach (which does). I'm overly-educated in the liberal arts, but that doesn't hinder my ability to be pragmatic and realistic. YAY.
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2 Responses to On Gaining Certainty

  1. Steph says:

    Hugs… hope things are better

  2. Audie says:

    Yes, it is true, if you expect the worst, you will never be disappointed, but it is also true that if you only ever expect the worst then you begin to cease to see the little goods that life offers until the only good you see is when it comes in great shining packages. I personally would rather be eternally disappointed and still be able to see the good that tries to stay hidden than to only be able to see the good that lays out in the open.
    Not saying that being disappointed doesn’t suck mightily. It DOES. But it is kinda part of the whole being a human experience.


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