I’m stuck on my dissertation. It’s not because I don’t want to read and write; the problem is that what I want to read is science fiction and fantasy and what I want to write is my SF / fantasy novel, _An Island in the Moon_.
Maybe I’m just burned out. It happened before, in the last few months in my master’s studies, when I kept procrastinating on my MA thesis by doing *anything* except my MA thesis. And the kicker of it all is that my thesis was a *short story collection* since my specialization was in Creative Writing, but it was an accidental subject. I hadn’t meant to write a sorta memior; I wanted to write fantasy, but I procrastinated on the writing assignment, and I ended writing what I sorta knew, and that was, well, sorta me.
That’s alot of sortas. But I digress.
All my writer types out there: Has this ever happened to you? You’ve been blocked on a story / poem / song that you’ve been working on for fun, and now you’re armpit-deep in a homework assignment / work-related project, and that’s *exactly* when you get unblocked on the other project — the fun project. This is what’s happening to me. My dissertation will be a long one — at least 200 pages. My novel will also be a long one — I have no idea what the page length will be, but I’m basing it on the _Aenied_ for its narrative structure, and anyone who’s read it can tell you that the _Aeneid_ ain’t short.
I can’t write both at the same time.
On top of that, I’m currently teaching *five* classes of Freshman Composition, which leaves little free time for either diss or novel writing, especially since I like having a life outside of being a college professor and a doctoral student.
I know, I know. It’s a matter of organizing my priorities, taking one thing at a time, and just doing it. But the Lizard Queen is in a grousy mood (and she didn’t get to swim in the sun all summer, dag nabbit!), and she probably needs to get some real sleep for a change. Speaking of which… zzzzzzz….